Just when you thought Saturday would never come, it did. It's like, empires rose and fell and it's still Thursday. As planned, my best buds and I are gonna hang out for a much delayed needed bonding session. I swear, I really, really need someone to talk to because the boredom I'm enduring waiting for this day to come all week is driving me insane! I came close on wishing I was emo so that I could cut myself just to kill time. Hahaha! Okay, so that wasn't really funny.
Lame jokes aside, I'm in a very good mood. So good, in fact, that I sent word to the ex-boss this morning telling her that after much deliberation, I'm resigning. There's just no point in waiting. So this meant, I moved on from being a pseudo-quasi bum down to officially screwed unemployed, harhar. Actually, a couple of friends are nakapalan sa aking fezlaloo. They pointed out that this is like, the worst time to be a bum because of the whole worldwide economic crisis eklavoo (as always) but you know whuuut, to hell with it. It's just recession, not the end of the world, dah-lings! A bit of bad news though, my gal pal's big sister just got laid off. Wow. It's everywhere these days.
There's one thing bugging me though, I seem to be gaining weight. Okay, so maybe I just wolfed down five strips of bacon, a cup of rice, two slices of bread, a ginormous kaymito and half a mangosteen this morning, but that' normal right? So where the hell did this pot-belly came from?! Maybe it's the hormones?
Lastly, isn't it annoying when people you really don't want to talk to, springs out of nowhere and starts talking to you? And they don't get that you're being cryptic for a reason (take a wild guess).
They say the wrong things, being all in-your-face, annoys you so bad. Don't get me wrong these people did nothing wrong it's just for some strange reason, they rub me in the wrong way. Meh.
P.S.
Oh, on a totally unrelated note, I'll be leaving the city on Sunday. Woohoo! Bye y'all!
Friday, January 30, 2009
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
An Afternoon of Melancholy
I just made the decision to leave my company altogether, the whole "on-call" thing is just not working out for me. Following that, I got a couple of strange sms messages from office friends regarding my swift exit.
The irrepressible Carla texted me this morning and told me it was very quiet in the office without me and that PeePee was still bummed about the whole shit and surprisingly, even Carla's boyf was bummed over our situation. I told her to stop being such an emo about it and that I miss them a lot. I wish things could have been different. Another person who symphatized over this issue was Rhae.
Rhae, whom I worked side by side with for almost three years, was especially saddened over the whole thing. As I was making my way to my interview, she said something that really fizzled any happy thoughts I had that day. She said that I left and it's finally sinking in.
She said no matter how much I try to say that it's not like I'm dead or somewhere overseas, that doesn't mean that things will ever be the same again. That no matter how often I say that we could always see each other whenever we wanted, we know there will always be something missing. I wish she would stop saying things like that on times like these because it just makes things harder than it already is.
Feigning cheerfulness, I told her not to worry because I don't have any plans on disappearing on them and I will try to visit every once in a while.
When I left, one of my firmest resolve is that I will try to avoid feeling neither anger nor sadness over this. It's such a bad idea that I waded through old pics from our Iweb and MS12 days. Looking back at days gone by and laughing at our past debaucheries is just so hard. Gosh, and we looked so young during those days.
She's right, though. It just wouldn't be the same.
The irrepressible Carla texted me this morning and told me it was very quiet in the office without me and that PeePee was still bummed about the whole shit and surprisingly, even Carla's boyf was bummed over our situation. I told her to stop being such an emo about it and that I miss them a lot. I wish things could have been different. Another person who symphatized over this issue was Rhae.
Rhae, whom I worked side by side with for almost three years, was especially saddened over the whole thing. As I was making my way to my interview, she said something that really fizzled any happy thoughts I had that day. She said that I left and it's finally sinking in.
She said no matter how much I try to say that it's not like I'm dead or somewhere overseas, that doesn't mean that things will ever be the same again. That no matter how often I say that we could always see each other whenever we wanted, we know there will always be something missing. I wish she would stop saying things like that on times like these because it just makes things harder than it already is.
Feigning cheerfulness, I told her not to worry because I don't have any plans on disappearing on them and I will try to visit every once in a while.
When I left, one of my firmest resolve is that I will try to avoid feeling neither anger nor sadness over this. It's such a bad idea that I waded through old pics from our Iweb and MS12 days. Looking back at days gone by and laughing at our past debaucheries is just so hard. Gosh, and we looked so young during those days.
She's right, though. It just wouldn't be the same.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Spiked Apple Berry? Plausible.
So I was just ranting on and on about the vacation I was planning when ironically, I got word that I am in for an interview with a particular company I was waiting to hear from, these past few days. Actually, I only sent out three applications, prior to getting the "on-call" shit that my old company came out with. One of those, is this one. I wasn't actively looking for a job, mind you. I just wanted to test the water cuz I'm gangster, yo. Hahahahah! I'm cracking myself up!
God, I'm so lame.
They wanted to meet in Starbucks, which, understandably, raised an alarm inside my head. The first thing I thought was,maybe it's an entrapment operation instigated by the NBI. Should I call my lawyer? Because I know I won't be able to explain myself about the whole porn thing.
I know, I know, I'm paranoid but when you write porn in a Sarado-Katoliko third world country like oh, I dunno, the Philippines, that might get you arrested. Surviving four NBI raids will do that to you, I guess.
God, I'm so lame.
They wanted to meet in Starbucks, which, understandably, raised an alarm inside my head. The first thing I thought was,maybe it's an entrapment operation instigated by the NBI. Should I call my lawyer? Because I know I won't be able to explain myself about the whole porn thing.
I know, I know, I'm paranoid but when you write porn in a Sarado-Katoliko third world country like oh, I dunno, the Philippines, that might get you arrested. Surviving four NBI raids will do that to you, I guess.
Vacation
After one and a half days of allowing myself to wallow in self pity over another rut I got myself in, I can now officially declare that I'm over the drama. That's right, 'twas fast huh? That's the great thing about sensing things are about to go coco fucking bananas months beforehand, folks.
I watched the news last night and as it turns out, I was actually part of a growing statistic. Filipinos are all getting laid off all over the world. I know it's gonna sound bad but for a moment there, I was glad I wasn't alone on this. It's sad but hell, some people are probably faring much worse than this shit I'm in so thinking about that, I felt less angry.
I was thinking about shitload of things last night. Like, I realized I've been working non-stop for almost five years now and maybe it's high time I give myself some slack. How it would be nice to go home and reconnect with people from my home town, that maybe I should use this time to go ahead with my plans to put up a business or try my luck abroad. Gosh, so many things are running inside my frazzled brain that I was at it until three in the morning (yes, my body clock is still fucking my shit up).
I'll be on vacation, yes I will. I've been feeling the burn out since the middle of last year and hopefully when I get back I'll have better perspective on things. I plan to head north once again and just get away from the stress, even for a while.
Also, some people from the office said their good-byes. I have to admit it was a nice run and being able to say good-bye without feeling angry anymore was the best way to go. I'm keeping a stiff upper lip as I move forward.
I watched the news last night and as it turns out, I was actually part of a growing statistic. Filipinos are all getting laid off all over the world. I know it's gonna sound bad but for a moment there, I was glad I wasn't alone on this. It's sad but hell, some people are probably faring much worse than this shit I'm in so thinking about that, I felt less angry.
I was thinking about shitload of things last night. Like, I realized I've been working non-stop for almost five years now and maybe it's high time I give myself some slack. How it would be nice to go home and reconnect with people from my home town, that maybe I should use this time to go ahead with my plans to put up a business or try my luck abroad. Gosh, so many things are running inside my frazzled brain that I was at it until three in the morning (yes, my body clock is still fucking my shit up).
I'll be on vacation, yes I will. I've been feeling the burn out since the middle of last year and hopefully when I get back I'll have better perspective on things. I plan to head north once again and just get away from the stress, even for a while.
Also, some people from the office said their good-byes. I have to admit it was a nice run and being able to say good-bye without feeling angry anymore was the best way to go. I'm keeping a stiff upper lip as I move forward.
Monday, January 26, 2009
The Proverbial Ax, I Haz It.
... or something like that. The bad news is that I just had a sat down with the boss and it seems that they want me to go "on-call", meaning that they were unable to find me a client for almost a month and I would have to stop pretending I'm working and wait it out until they score me a gig. The good news is that I have been anticipating this for months and I sure as hell saw this coming all the way from Pluto.
Personally, I know I am the weakest link among the four writers under my ex-bosses employ. I've been very vocal about just having a feeling that I'll be the first to go since late November. It blows my mind how intuitive I can be sometimes.It's not because I think my skills are far less superior compared to theirs, it's just that my tendency to be such a hot head and my inability to tolerate stupidity and incompetence among my superiors didn't help my cause.
My boss also tried to offer me some gig, the only catch was there will be no writing involved. I politely declined telling her that I know I won't be happy doing something I don't love and I hate doing half-assed work. She understood and told me to wait for their call. It would be unlikely for me to take that call seeing how badly they messed up my case. I'm having none of this again. Ever. I'm very dismayed. And livid. I can't even articulate my feelings over this sudden bombshell. But you can bet I'll try.
If there's one thing I regret, it would be momentary lapse in judgment when I chose this gig over Iweb. Yes, I had to go that far. I know, I was too proud to admit it but I think that was a monumental mistake. People from my circle has grown tired of me harping out the same thing over and over again. I couldn't help but drive myself crazy over this. I knew it was a bad idea but I was too tired, too angry, too disappointed and too impatient to think logically. So okay, I'll admit it, I blew over my promotion, my increased salary and my annual increase just because my boss won't let me chat with my friends. There, I admit it. However, that doesn't mean I'll be crawling back there any time soon as my ego can't take anymore beating.I just wish that that would be the last time my impatience will ever win me over. Maybe the next time I get a bright idea, I'll just keep it to myself and not act it out, hahahhaha!
There are some things I just don't get. We discussed something errr... totally revealing and if there were anything in our conversation that hit me right in the heart it would be that. I wanted to scream something like, "WTFF, are you fucking kidding me?! God, no wonder your company is going down." Frankly, I don't feel bad about stopping from going to work because of the God-forsaken shift and and the overall instability of the company but I just hated the fact that they are a mess when it comes to managing their finances.
I'm angry over the fact that they bruised my ego so badly, I'm totally re-evaluating my skills in writing. She told me nothing from all of the numerous writing auditions I did ever went through and you might think I sound totally condescending but I couldn't, for the life of me... never mind, I won't say it. I know that my skills had nothing to do with the whole calling off thing but really, I'm not taking any chances. And lastly I'm livid with the fact that I chose to stick with them knowing full well that I'd be the first to go just because I was too naive, thinking they're bound to get their shit together after some time.
I want to go on a shopping spree or on a food trip, just to blow some steam but at this point, that wouldn't be a good idea. I can't be unemployed, broke and fat all at the same time. I want to walk out right now except it's four in the fucking morning. Ghaaaaaaaad. I'll just gnash my teeth quietly while I smoke up a riot until the dawn breaks. Fuck them.
Perhaps, my dream vacation might come true after all.
Personally, I know I am the weakest link among the four writers under my ex-bosses employ. I've been very vocal about just having a feeling that I'll be the first to go since late November. It blows my mind how intuitive I can be sometimes.It's not because I think my skills are far less superior compared to theirs, it's just that my tendency to be such a hot head and my inability to tolerate stupidity and incompetence among my superiors didn't help my cause.
My boss also tried to offer me some gig, the only catch was there will be no writing involved. I politely declined telling her that I know I won't be happy doing something I don't love and I hate doing half-assed work. She understood and told me to wait for their call. It would be unlikely for me to take that call seeing how badly they messed up my case. I'm having none of this again. Ever. I'm very dismayed. And livid. I can't even articulate my feelings over this sudden bombshell. But you can bet I'll try.
If there's one thing I regret, it would be momentary lapse in judgment when I chose this gig over Iweb. Yes, I had to go that far. I know, I was too proud to admit it but I think that was a monumental mistake. People from my circle has grown tired of me harping out the same thing over and over again. I couldn't help but drive myself crazy over this. I knew it was a bad idea but I was too tired, too angry, too disappointed and too impatient to think logically. So okay, I'll admit it, I blew over my promotion, my increased salary and my annual increase just because my boss won't let me chat with my friends. There, I admit it. However, that doesn't mean I'll be crawling back there any time soon as my ego can't take anymore beating.I just wish that that would be the last time my impatience will ever win me over. Maybe the next time I get a bright idea, I'll just keep it to myself and not act it out, hahahhaha!
There are some things I just don't get. We discussed something errr... totally revealing and if there were anything in our conversation that hit me right in the heart it would be that. I wanted to scream something like, "WTFF, are you fucking kidding me?! God, no wonder your company is going down." Frankly, I don't feel bad about stopping from going to work because of the God-forsaken shift and and the overall instability of the company but I just hated the fact that they are a mess when it comes to managing their finances.
I'm angry over the fact that they bruised my ego so badly, I'm totally re-evaluating my skills in writing. She told me nothing from all of the numerous writing auditions I did ever went through and you might think I sound totally condescending but I couldn't, for the life of me... never mind, I won't say it. I know that my skills had nothing to do with the whole calling off thing but really, I'm not taking any chances. And lastly I'm livid with the fact that I chose to stick with them knowing full well that I'd be the first to go just because I was too naive, thinking they're bound to get their shit together after some time.
I want to go on a shopping spree or on a food trip, just to blow some steam but at this point, that wouldn't be a good idea. I can't be unemployed, broke and fat all at the same time. I want to walk out right now except it's four in the fucking morning. Ghaaaaaaaad. I'll just gnash my teeth quietly while I smoke up a riot until the dawn breaks. Fuck them.
Perhaps, my dream vacation might come true after all.
Spaceman by The Killers: I Don't Geddit
I loved this band ever since a boy I used to know introduced me to one of their old hit, Read My Mind, which in my humble opinion, was one of the best song they every came up with.The lyrics were just as beautiful as the melody and it is still, my favorite The Killers song to date. Anyways, back to the other song. I just saw the MTV of their latest single, Spaceman and it didn't make a whole lot of sense, much like their earlier hit song Human, but in a different light.
You see, for me, the song Human is catchy, cute and all that jazz but the message doesn't really make sense. The song, in its entirety, felt like the boys were tossing random words to fit a certain melody. But that's just me. The Spaceman song, on the other hand have quirky, extremely amusing lyrics and great melody but the video is just weird.
To be fair, Brandon never looked so hot. The whole goateed cowboy porn star look never really suited him. Also, I think he's only one of the lucky few who can actually look good in a slut red velvet catsuit. However, watching the vid, I was kinda expecting something... not so far out there, you know? I mean, its artsy but it is also overwhelmingly fartsy. I've been listening to this song way before an actual video came out and I gotta say it was different from what I had in mind. Actually, the album Day and Age is light years different from Hot Fuss and Sam's Town however, that's just to show how versatile they are as artists. Also, I love it when they went techno pop-ish, I can't get enough of their new songs!
The major suckage of the song Human as well as the video of Spaceman doesn't change the fact that I'm in love with Brandon, that they are one of the greatest band out there today and that I would still be one of their avid listeners even if they try to pull a mean Discotheque on their fans in the near future. Yeah! Brandon Forevah!
The Weekend That Was
It's officially the year of the Earth Ox as I'm writing this. Although I'm not much of a superstitious person, I got a slight feeling that I'll have a lot more things going on this year. Of course, that feeling is fading little by by little because of the bad economy but it's okay, I need a fucking vacation anyways.
The main reason why me and my sister just had to go home is that we brought him a massive remote-controlled car! We were more excited about it than he was but it was great!
See, I got there just in time for the Chinese Christmas, which we, as pure blooded Chinese, just had to celebrate. The celebration wasn't as grand as the Christmas holidays but it was just as fun. My estranged cousin also came to visit bringing with him his pseudo-wife. I was also introduced to my one year old pamangkin named Moira. Cute name, huh? My mom and dad, being gracious hosts that they are (I'm being sarcastic), left me to entertain them all. Ugh. Honestly, I sort of had a bad history with this particular cousin of mine and wasn't really looking forward on talking to them about the mundanity of the life I lead however, it was kind of interesting, catching up with them. Strangely enough, I didn't have to put up a front or shit like that.
Another thing was I had another one of those profound conversation with a friend through text. It's a rare thing for me as I rarely ever respond to a text message unless the person on the other end of the line is really important or wants to say something imoprtant. So there, we talked mostly about why we province-bred lasses loved to make it big in the metro, how painful it is to see our parents growing old, missing important moments because we were rarely home and as for me, retiring from work here at 35. It kinda put me in a very melancholic mood. The future is really scary... and murky.
So I'm trying to shake off the bad vibes now, hahaha! Ghad.
The main reason why me and my sister just had to go home is that we brought him a massive remote-controlled car! We were more excited about it than he was but it was great!
See, I got there just in time for the Chinese Christmas, which we, as pure blooded Chinese, just had to celebrate. The celebration wasn't as grand as the Christmas holidays but it was just as fun. My estranged cousin also came to visit bringing with him his pseudo-wife. I was also introduced to my one year old pamangkin named Moira. Cute name, huh? My mom and dad, being gracious hosts that they are (I'm being sarcastic), left me to entertain them all. Ugh. Honestly, I sort of had a bad history with this particular cousin of mine and wasn't really looking forward on talking to them about the mundanity of the life I lead however, it was kind of interesting, catching up with them. Strangely enough, I didn't have to put up a front or shit like that.
Another thing was I had another one of those profound conversation with a friend through text. It's a rare thing for me as I rarely ever respond to a text message unless the person on the other end of the line is really important or wants to say something imoprtant. So there, we talked mostly about why we province-bred lasses loved to make it big in the metro, how painful it is to see our parents growing old, missing important moments because we were rarely home and as for me, retiring from work here at 35. It kinda put me in a very melancholic mood. The future is really scary... and murky.
So I'm trying to shake off the bad vibes now, hahaha! Ghad.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Can I Haz Tattoos?
I've been thinking a lot more and more about getting another tattoo. Ghad. I must fight the urge. And I kept thinking of getting cute, multi-colored stars or maybe a simple zodiac symbol on the upper left side my waist kinda like what Rihanna have below.
or some sort of a celestial symbol like the one below
...except the stars are also just as pronounced as the moon like so:
Just small ones. Except I like big tats too. It's like, I want the whole of my backside inked. Of course, I know how much that would hurt so mebbe not. Gah. I must stop surfing for tattoo designs, it makes me feel like running to my artist for a quickie tat session, hahahaha! Which reminds me, I was supposed to contact my mentor Tin because dear ol' Enna want to get inked again. She's like, got three two or three tats going on, I'm so freakin' jealous!
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Blunder-rific
What I Said:
Ehtch Ar Suit: Hi Tina, may I request for those links from your SGV stint? You are working there as an editor, is this right? Thank you.
Best regards,
Kr***
Tina: Good Evening Ms. M******,
I'm sorry but I don't believe I indicated anything in my resume about working as an editor for SGV.
What I Really Want To Say:
Ehtch Ar Suit: Hi Tina, may I request for those links from your SGV stint? You are working there as an editor, is this right? Thank you.
Best regards,
Kr***
Tina: Good Evening Ms. M******,
I'm sorry but I don't believe I indicated anything in my resume about working as an editor for SGV. Of course, you would have known that had you taken some time to actually read the resume I sent you. You didn't read it, huh? I thought so.
Ehtch Ar Suit: Hi Tina, may I request for those links from your SGV stint? You are working there as an editor, is this right? Thank you.
Best regards,
Kr***
Tina: Good Evening Ms. M******,
I'm sorry but I don't believe I indicated anything in my resume about working as an editor for SGV.
What I Really Want To Say:
Ehtch Ar Suit: Hi Tina, may I request for those links from your SGV stint? You are working there as an editor, is this right? Thank you.
Best regards,
Kr***
Tina: Good Evening Ms. M******,
I'm sorry but I don't believe I indicated anything in my resume about working as an editor for SGV. Of course, you would have known that had you taken some time to actually read the resume I sent you. You didn't read it, huh? I thought so.
Monday, January 19, 2009
With My Girls, PeePee and KeeKee
Ze Author
Ze Gays
Oh, ze dramz!
One of the things I find fun working here in this hellhole is that I got to meet some of the gayest, most flamboyant bunch of people. Most notably are Jackie and P-Chan whom I lovingly call KeeKee and PeePee, hahahaha! Last night, we literally have nothing to do that's why me and my girls just fooled around with my mobile phone camera and took these pictures.
Night Shift and Morning Madness
How come early mornings are so dull? Like, everything's moving in such a slow motion ala Matrix-like pace? I hated early mornings back when I was still in the morning shift and though I should be glad when the dawn breaks now that I'm in the night shift, I'm still hating it. Everything's so damn bright, everyone's so freakin' cheerful, it's so noisy as people try to beat the morning rush, it's crazy. The thought that most most morning shift people I see on the streets have already taken their bath while I reek of day old cigarette smoke smell, smog and greasy food really renews my hate of the night shift.
To make matters worse, I've been overeating. Dammit. Like I haven't suffer enough? Why is life so freakin' unfair?! I'm gonna have a bitch fit!
Hahaha, okay. I jest, I jest. But seriously, I'm half-wishing something can be done real soon because I can't even to begin to think what will happen if I stay like this. Ugh, so frustrating.
On a totally unrelated note, I tried cooking myself some fried oysters yesterday morning. I mean, how hard can it be right? I got the egg batter, flour with a dash of salt, pepper and paprika, all I had to do was to simply dip the oysters into the egg batter down to the flour fry it to a crisp and then there's my morning breakfast, no? WELL. Halfway through frying the whole thing, it turned into this disgusting gray mulch which looked so yucky. Of course, I had to taste my creation and guess what? It tasted as bad as it looked. It was so godawful that I immediately stopped cooking the rest of the oysters, threw everything in the garbage and re-heated my mom's adobo instead. Easy-peasy pooh.
To make matters worse, I've been overeating. Dammit. Like I haven't suffer enough? Why is life so freakin' unfair?! I'm gonna have a bitch fit!
Hahaha, okay. I jest, I jest. But seriously, I'm half-wishing something can be done real soon because I can't even to begin to think what will happen if I stay like this. Ugh, so frustrating.
On a totally unrelated note, I tried cooking myself some fried oysters yesterday morning. I mean, how hard can it be right? I got the egg batter, flour with a dash of salt, pepper and paprika, all I had to do was to simply dip the oysters into the egg batter down to the flour fry it to a crisp and then there's my morning breakfast, no? WELL. Halfway through frying the whole thing, it turned into this disgusting gray mulch which looked so yucky. Of course, I had to taste my creation and guess what? It tasted as bad as it looked. It was so godawful that I immediately stopped cooking the rest of the oysters, threw everything in the garbage and re-heated my mom's adobo instead. Easy-peasy pooh.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Revisiting an Old Haunt
I decided to take a long walk a couple of days ago. Most of the time, I walk alone not because I like it but because I don't have much of a choice. That particular time, however, I kept thinking that it was such a nice night and I wanna go for a nice stroll around parts of the city I haven't been in. So there I was, walking slowly at eight in the evening, shivering from the unusually cold air and suddenly, I wanted to eat. Actually, as soon as I set foot on that particular avenue, I made up my mind to stop at Pancake House because it's been so long since the last time I ate there. It was more or less 8 months ago and I was with Peter and Roschie. Hay, I kinda miss those days.
So anyways, I was floored with how much their menu changed in only a few months! Their steak meals suddenly grew into different cuts, all mouth-watering, there were new desserts and shakes which unfortunately, I didn't bother trying since I was sort of trying not to overindulge. I blame my recent shopping spree with my sister, hawhaw. I settled for the roast beef combo because firstly, I needed the meat and second, I needed the roughage.
The photo looked absolutely scrumptious! It kinda stood out among the rest of the food. However, that was the only thing remotely scrumptious in this meal. I was disappointed because the meat tasted dry and papery, the gravy was as bland as they come and the rice was a bit dry as well. I gotta say though, the salad that came with it was awesome. The lettuce was crunchy and there were loads of bacon bits and light dressing which tasted great and helped me down the whole thing without paying too much attention to the tasteless beef that came with the meal. The best part was, the whole meal comes with a glass of iced tea, yay! Overall, I had a great time revisiting an old haunt and I shall drop by again in the near future but next time, I'll probably try the steak instead.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Iwebdate Super Kids Club: The Reunion
How we say hello, you ask?
So the Iwebdate Super Kids Club Reunion pushed through and it was a blast! Never mind that we had to change the venue three times because one of our founding members was suffering from a nasty case of arthritis:D As always, I had fun. It's such a bummer that I was idly chatting away during my shift because I'd much prefer to catch up with dem lot than work anytime, harhar. Also, this secret site won't be much of a secret any longer. I made the mistake of blurting out the addy of my site when someone from the group asked me where my new blog site is. Gah.
Unfortunately, Roschie's Pantless look was not clear in this pic
Monday, January 12, 2009
Good Ol' Coffee Conversation
Meeting up with Kris to formally put an end to our little feud is what I exactly needed to jump start an otherwise sordid night spent here in this shithole. It was nice to, yet again, iron things out and talk about what we have been busying ourselves with during the time we were not talking. I also told her things that I don't dare tell anybody else and I must admit that it's nice knowing that there's always that one person whom you can always depend on especially on a rotten time like this. Even though I'm having a tough start this year, I feel like everything's bound to be alright.
I also made a rather, waaaaay, advance invites to my coming birthday celebration. I wanted something intimate with only my oldest friends present. It's bound to be fun and I'm zoooo super excited :D Anyway, back to Kris and I, turns out she got another gig going for her. She keeps changing companies way more often than I brush my teeth but this time, she finally knows what her passion is and I couldn't be more happier. Of course, we wasted no time planning for another get together. Hopefully with our favoritest man-boy in the whole wide world, Carlo, in tow! Yay, can't wait!
Another thing worth looking forward to is tomorrow where I am going to meet up with the Iwebdate Super Kids Club. That should be fun because I missed Edce, Roschie and Enna so freakin' much.
Incidentally, In lieu of making night shift my official shift, I bought this neck pillow that I've been eyeing for months. It's ultra kawaii and goes perfectly well with my awesome green Nike bag, dontcha think? Franky, I fought tooth and nail to go back to the morning shift but now, that's like, asking for the damn moon. The worst part is that I can't work from home. So now I must get used to waking up naseous and headache-y all throughout my stint here. Sucks so bad, this is not the way to live. Damn economy cramping my style.
I also made a rather, waaaaay, advance invites to my coming birthday celebration. I wanted something intimate with only my oldest friends present. It's bound to be fun and I'm zoooo super excited :D Anyway, back to Kris and I, turns out she got another gig going for her. She keeps changing companies way more often than I brush my teeth but this time, she finally knows what her passion is and I couldn't be more happier. Of course, we wasted no time planning for another get together. Hopefully with our favoritest man-boy in the whole wide world, Carlo, in tow! Yay, can't wait!
Another thing worth looking forward to is tomorrow where I am going to meet up with the Iwebdate Super Kids Club. That should be fun because I missed Edce, Roschie and Enna so freakin' much.
Incidentally, In lieu of making night shift my official shift, I bought this neck pillow that I've been eyeing for months. It's ultra kawaii and goes perfectly well with my awesome green Nike bag, dontcha think? Franky, I fought tooth and nail to go back to the morning shift but now, that's like, asking for the damn moon. The worst part is that I can't work from home. So now I must get used to waking up naseous and headache-y all throughout my stint here. Sucks so bad, this is not the way to live. Damn economy cramping my style.
Early Morning Chatter
So it's 6:30 in the morning and I was just roused from sleep by an office mate. Meaning, I'm typing away blearily. Yeah, I'm actually multi-tasking, y'all! As it turns out, being in this shift would be longer than promised but the again, it's not like I actually believed that the bosses would keep their word. Hah. Fat chance. So here's the thing, the bosses just announced that they want to cut back on expenses and that means firing four people and totally eradicating the morning shift schedule to save up on energy while there were still no clients. WTF, right? Seriously, these people does nothing to calm my nerves. And just now, the boss tells me that I should shut my pc down as soon as its six in the morning probably because he needs to save energy that bad. God, I wanna laugh out loud right now but I'm still sleepy.
So there, as of the moment I pretty much have no choice but to show up at night which I fucking hate. I'm confused though. If we're having problems, why did they even think an ad would make it all better? It seems to me, this company won't make it till my birthday. The weirdest thing is that I don't even care whether I get the boot or not. Maybe it's because I wanted a long vacation so much. I must admit I haven't really shaken off the whole Holiday vacation vibe and I've been feeling so freakin' unmotivated by work lately that anything sounds good to me. Like, a while ago, I tried to compose a decent porn site review and it sucked donkey balls. From my experience, it's never a good time to write when I haven't written anything worth reading for a long time. So basically, I wrote a worthless piece of shit. Actually, I tried writing something funny but ended up copy pasting my previous write-up and edited it to sound erm... newer. The rest of my time here I snoozed. Fuck you, corporate world.
P.S.
Also, I broke a new personal record. This is by far the earliest blog write-up I did! Yeah!
So there, as of the moment I pretty much have no choice but to show up at night which I fucking hate. I'm confused though. If we're having problems, why did they even think an ad would make it all better? It seems to me, this company won't make it till my birthday. The weirdest thing is that I don't even care whether I get the boot or not. Maybe it's because I wanted a long vacation so much. I must admit I haven't really shaken off the whole Holiday vacation vibe and I've been feeling so freakin' unmotivated by work lately that anything sounds good to me. Like, a while ago, I tried to compose a decent porn site review and it sucked donkey balls. From my experience, it's never a good time to write when I haven't written anything worth reading for a long time. So basically, I wrote a worthless piece of shit. Actually, I tried writing something funny but ended up copy pasting my previous write-up and edited it to sound erm... newer. The rest of my time here I snoozed. Fuck you, corporate world.
P.S.
Also, I broke a new personal record. This is by far the earliest blog write-up I did! Yeah!
Friday, January 9, 2009
Image Model
What I Said:
Boss: Tina, in March, you'll be one of the image model for our company ads. I'll provide the wardrobe.
Tina: Okay.
What I Really Wanted To Say:
Boss: Tina, in March, you'll be one of the image model for our company ads. I'll provide the wardrobe.
Tina: Huh? You mean the company will still make it till March?
Boss: Tina, in March, you'll be one of the image model for our company ads. I'll provide the wardrobe.
Tina: Okay.
What I Really Wanted To Say:
Boss: Tina, in March, you'll be one of the image model for our company ads. I'll provide the wardrobe.
Tina: Huh? You mean the company will still make it till March?
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Mooning Over Mika
Mika's album, Life in Cartoon Motion, is a fine one and I'm pretty impressed with some of his songs! So much so that I'm naming my top three favorite songs by Mika! The first song, titled My Interpretation is my favorite among the fold. I guess there are so many times in our lives where we all felt exactly the same thing, no? Lovesit!
The second one is entitled Happy Ending. It may be a bit too depressing to listen because this song is essentially about breaking up and all that jazz but it's so nice to listen to especially on a lazy afternoon.
Last but no the least, this is the song Mika was really known for. Some people are either annoyed with this song or think its one shade short of gay-tastic but I swear, when I hear this song, it totally cheers me up! The song is titled Love Today. Pure dance pop awesomeness!
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Tone Deaf
Since I got transferred to the night shift, I haven't got a single decent sleep and my body is taking the brunt from being awake at odd hours. Like this afternoon, I woke up with a crippling cramp, felt nauseous and headache-y at the same time. Maybe it's the universe's way of saying I'm fucked and just about ready to shrivel up and die. I don't like it one bit.
To make matters even more worrisome than it already is, persistent rumors about the growing instability of the company I'm currently working for seems to be not letting up. The fact that two employees got the proverbial ax this week alone as well as the delayed payouts are not helping to put the matter to rest. I think I have every reason to keep updating my resume and be ready just in case the ship sinks for good. Haaay.
On the lighter side of the fence, I went out for some videoke time with the office mates, the first one in three months. I went because Kapre asked me personally and it's still, technically, his birthday. So there I was, belting out a screeching rendition of Total Eclipse of The Heart at the crack of dawn. The whole of Ortigas woke up to the sound of a drunken pint-sized girl with the raspy voice of an 85-year old woman suffering from emphysema. It wasn't pretty.
So what did I feel, being back after so long? Honestly, I had a nice time but I don't think it will become a habit of mine any time soon, so there.
To make matters even more worrisome than it already is, persistent rumors about the growing instability of the company I'm currently working for seems to be not letting up. The fact that two employees got the proverbial ax this week alone as well as the delayed payouts are not helping to put the matter to rest. I think I have every reason to keep updating my resume and be ready just in case the ship sinks for good. Haaay.
On the lighter side of the fence, I went out for some videoke time with the office mates, the first one in three months. I went because Kapre asked me personally and it's still, technically, his birthday. So there I was, belting out a screeching rendition of Total Eclipse of The Heart at the crack of dawn. The whole of Ortigas woke up to the sound of a drunken pint-sized girl with the raspy voice of an 85-year old woman suffering from emphysema. It wasn't pretty.
So what did I feel, being back after so long? Honestly, I had a nice time but I don't think it will become a habit of mine any time soon, so there.
Night Shi(f)T II
What I Said:
Boss: Unfortunately yes. There's a possibility that your transfer from the night shift might be permanent.
Tina: Oh.
What I Really Want To Say:
Boss: Unfortunately yes. There's a possibility that your transfer from the night shift might be permanent.
Tina: YOU"RE GAY!
Boss: Unfortunately yes. There's a possibility that your transfer from the night shift might be permanent.
Tina: Oh.
What I Really Want To Say:
Boss: Unfortunately yes. There's a possibility that your transfer from the night shift might be permanent.
Tina: YOU"RE GAY!
Feels Like 1999 All Over Again
I'm having the strangest year so far. It's just like what the title says, it feels like it's 1999 all over again. One of my resolutions for this year includes reconnecting with old friends and it's like, I opened a damn portal or something because people from my High School days keeps springing from out of the blue. The last person who came to say Hi is a boy named Alden. He called me up a few minutes after I arrived at the office. Besides the fact that he was known for the lengthy wooing he did to a common friend, I remember him best as a quiet sort of guy with sparkling eyes. Actually, I can dimly recall a conversation I had with this person about it, that's how noticeable his eyes were but I digress. He and my friend became an item but the romance fizzled out right after our senior year.
I found our conversation strange because first, I haven't heard from him in like, a couple of years thanks to my sudden sabbatical back when I was still a neurotic mess and second, it was an overseas call. The strangest part of it all? He called all the way from the Middle East just to ask me if I have a Friendster account and asked for my IM ID.
Hmmm...strange indeed.
I found our conversation strange because first, I haven't heard from him in like, a couple of years thanks to my sudden sabbatical back when I was still a neurotic mess and second, it was an overseas call. The strangest part of it all? He called all the way from the Middle East just to ask me if I have a Friendster account and asked for my IM ID.
Hmmm...strange indeed.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Night Shi(f)t
The night started out awesome, I went to the mall to meet up with an old friend and it was every bit as fun as I imagined it to be. We haven’t seen each other for years and now, I regret all the time I wasted not being able to catch up with her.
She and I were the newbies from our old HS and as I later found out, was a voracious reader, much like myself. So naturally, we got around comparing our favorite authors, borrowing each other's books and such. Back in the day, we belonged to a certain group of people in one class and almost hung around even during the weekends. By the time college was over, people sort of fell off the radar after high school, myself included.
Sitting in a restaurant while eating and laughing heartily amidst shared stories from days gone by was definitely a great way to start the year off! It has been a long time since I talked to someone I can relate to and be totally honest with. I spent most of last year bottling up anger and frustrations without telling anyone and for a while, Ii was really in a bad shape. The worst part was that I shut myself out from most people I hang out with because I was afraid of confronting them about the cause of my growing resentment. It might seem selfish of me to go on a monotonous tirade over dinner with a person I haven’t seen in more or less eight years but the words kind of just spilled out. The good news was she took it well and didn’t leave the room screaming, hahaha!
It’s good to know that even at this pathetic, hermit-like state I live in, there were still some days worth remembering. It was a nice night and I wish we could do it more often.
The events after that, however, were not that kosher.
Monday, January 5, 2009
Manic Monday
What I Said
Boss: Do you want to go home now and just come back later this evening?
Tina: Uhh… can I just transfer to the night shift tomorrow instead? I just got here.
Boss-:Okay.
What I Really Want to Say:
Tina: Would it kill you to notify me in advance of the sudden changes in my schedule? I didn’t think so. I woke up at the crack of dawn to take a cold shower, primped for an hour and waited for a ride under the sweltering third-world sun for twenty God-forsaken minutes just so I could make it in the office on time so answering your question, how about no?
Sunday, January 4, 2009
An Open Letter
What I wrote:
Dear Philhosting,
I would like to terminate both CannedThoughts.net and OffbeatDeadbeat.com accounts. The name servers are as follows...
Regards,
Tina
What I Really Want to Say:
Dear Philhosting,
I would like to terminate both CannedThoughts.net and OffbeatDeadbeat.com accounts. The name servers are as follows...
Regards,
Tina
What I Really Want to Say:
The Year In Review: 2008
New Year, New Soul
I read that phrase in a daily and though I forgot who the author was, I share the same sentiment. I think it makes perfect sense. Whenever the New Year comes, a part of me always wishes for some changes in my life, to be a better version of myself and I don't suppose I'm the only one who feels this way.
2008 was a hell of a year for me and not in a good way. I had to deal with all sorts of ruckus and just the mere thought of the year gone by triggers my migraine. Of course, the fact that both CannedThoughts.net and OffbeatDeadBeat.com are all but gone by the end of December, served as the icing to this horrid, miserable cake that was 2008.
Dealing with the new sites, asking countless favors and worrying how the fuck was I supposed to retrieve two years' worth of blog posts, most definitely highlighted how miserable I was during this time. But now, seeing how lovely my new site came along (all thanks to my good friend, Ratzingerjoe, who hooked me up with just about everything I needed to get back on track) was just elating. Hell, this is so much better than the old one, so who am I to complain?
Also, I love the fact that none of my friends know about this site. It's... a secret site, y'all! Hahaha! No, really, I'm stoked that none of the people from my circle knows about this site because that means more privacy for me and friends are less inclined to copy+paste quotations from my blogs and asking me about it on IM, something which I totally abhor.
Anyway, I headed up north for the holidays and had a great time. So great in fact, that I absolutely hated the idea of going back to the metro to pick up where I left off. I’m also almost sorry that Christmas, which is like, my favorite time of the year, is over. God, now I have to wait 12 months for the holidays to come along. It's so sad.
The room in question
The great thing about having a lengthy vacation was that I not only ate decent food, something I haven't had for a long time, but also having a massive amount of time, I was able to finally clean up my dusty, cobwebs-ridden bedroom! From dusty drab to awesome in all of its pink glory, my bedroom finally looked like someone was actually using it.
The cute kid in question
Going home also meant that I get to spend more time with my five-year-old brother, which I totally adore. I miss him like crazy now, ugh. My high school friends also came over to our house. These guys and I go way back and I was so happy that we could finally reconnect and reminisce about our crazy adolescent years!
The sluts in question
So to wrap it all up, 2008 will go down my personal history as a train wreck offa freakin’ year and I’m not sorry to see it go. In fact, I lit up one firecracker after another in celebration of it getting the fuck out of everyone’s life.
Great. Writing about folks from home made me miss everyone, even my dumb as fuck, air-head of a cousin.
Sexy XDrive and New Orlean-ish Experience
It's 9 days away from Jesus' birthday and I still haven't finished shopping for gifts! I've been slacking around way too much it seems. So while my sister and I was restlessly hounding the Gift Gate shop, I saw a flyer about WD's candy-colored external hard drives. They come in a wide array of colors, which is awesome because I'm a sucker for anything bright and shiny.So to cut the story short, I bought one. In slut red. Only because the orange ones are apparently out of stock. Waaah!
Never mind the fact that I don't really need it or that it wasn't even included on my Christmas list, I still bought one. It's safe to say that this is one of the weirdest purchase I did for this year. Like, Attack of the Nerds kind of weird. Well that's that.
Also, we went over to the newly-constructed Megamall Atrium. I'm a little disappointed that most stores/restos located on that area were still not open however, there are a few notable restos that was already in full swing like Amici, Gumbo and Brother's Burgers.
In action...
Never mind the fact that I don't really need it or that it wasn't even included on my Christmas list, I still bought one. It's safe to say that this is one of the weirdest purchase I did for this year. Like, Attack of the Nerds kind of weird. Well that's that.
Also, we went over to the newly-constructed Megamall Atrium. I'm a little disappointed that most stores/restos located on that area were still not open however, there are a few notable restos that was already in full swing like Amici, Gumbo and Brother's Burgers.
Jambalaya
The Tale of The Yodeling Nerd
The new tenant at the apartment next to us never really struck me as an odd person. In fact, the bespectacled guy looked pretty much normal to us, in a geeky, slightly chubby, kind of way. It’s been a while since the place was vacated and my sister and I were kind of glad that we have a new neighbor. Two weeks later, he finally settled down. Waaaay too comfortably, it seems.
The time was 6:30 AM when I was rudely awaken with the sound of a yodeling idiot. His voice was similar to the throaty screech of a cow being mercilessly pounded with a machete smack at the center of poor beast’s forehead. Except, it was to the tune of “Hallelujah”. Yes. “Hallelujah”. By Bamboo. Over and over again.
Turns out, Yodeling Nerd has one flaw. He, apparently, have no self awareness whatsoever. I don’t know which is more appalling, the fact that his choice of music sucks like hell, his godawful singing voice that rivals that of a pack of sexed up gibbons, or the fact that he was half-screaming the damn song for everyone within 3 mile radius to hear.
My sister, stirred from her slumber, muttered something about the lack of respect for peace from kids nowadays and made a beeline to the bathroom to take her morning dump. It was a habit of hers I really envy since I’m hopelessly constipated. With nothing to do but wait for my turn to the bathroom, I sipped my morning coffee while marinating in annoyance at our next door neighbor. It was, simply put, loud and horrible, his voice and rendition, respectively.
The time was 6:30 AM when I was rudely awaken with the sound of a yodeling idiot. His voice was similar to the throaty screech of a cow being mercilessly pounded with a machete smack at the center of poor beast’s forehead. Except, it was to the tune of “Hallelujah”. Yes. “Hallelujah”. By Bamboo. Over and over again.
Turns out, Yodeling Nerd has one flaw. He, apparently, have no self awareness whatsoever. I don’t know which is more appalling, the fact that his choice of music sucks like hell, his godawful singing voice that rivals that of a pack of sexed up gibbons, or the fact that he was half-screaming the damn song for everyone within 3 mile radius to hear.
My sister, stirred from her slumber, muttered something about the lack of respect for peace from kids nowadays and made a beeline to the bathroom to take her morning dump. It was a habit of hers I really envy since I’m hopelessly constipated. With nothing to do but wait for my turn to the bathroom, I sipped my morning coffee while marinating in annoyance at our next door neighbor. It was, simply put, loud and horrible, his voice and rendition, respectively.
Apps-Hoarding At its Finest
The company Christmas party came and went and I hardly felt it. I was bummed that I wasn’t able to go but then again it’s not like I have much of a choice. So last week I picked up my baby brother from Star City, they were on the last leg of their filed trip and I was super excited to meet him up but two hours of rubber necking and being chin-deep in shrill high school excursionists finished off with the dreary smell of spray pain (which made my head throb) really put me in a foul mood.
However it was a fun day and Waki being here in the metro for a couple of days not only broke an otherwise monotonous week but also motivated me to stop stressing over unnecessary things.
So it’s 14 days before Christmas and I’m already in the mood for a nice, long vacation! Honestly, it’s all I think about…. Well, that and my annual Christmas Shopping! I just can’t wait for a change of scenery because seriously I want a break from working and I’m in dire need for some Me-Time!
Another thing is that I have become so addicted on hunting useful applications for my E71 and I just can’t freakin’ stop. It came to a point where the pc I was using got infected with a virus and I wasn’t able to use it for a couple of days. I’m assuming it was my fault because the machine was working fine until I checked out some sites. Anyways, I’m feeling generous today so I’m sharing some of the great apps/sites I found
FYI: Apps are new to me since this is the first time I got my filthy hands on a smart phone. WAG NYO AKONG TAWANAN MGA ANAK NI SATANAS!!!!!
However it was a fun day and Waki being here in the metro for a couple of days not only broke an otherwise monotonous week but also motivated me to stop stressing over unnecessary things.
So it’s 14 days before Christmas and I’m already in the mood for a nice, long vacation! Honestly, it’s all I think about…. Well, that and my annual Christmas Shopping! I just can’t wait for a change of scenery because seriously I want a break from working and I’m in dire need for some Me-Time!
Another thing is that I have become so addicted on hunting useful applications for my E71 and I just can’t freakin’ stop. It came to a point where the pc I was using got infected with a virus and I wasn’t able to use it for a couple of days. I’m assuming it was my fault because the machine was working fine until I checked out some sites. Anyways, I’m feeling generous today so I’m sharing some of the great apps/sites I found
FYI: Apps are new to me since this is the first time I got my filthy hands on a smart phone. WAG NYO AKONG TAWANAN MGA ANAK NI SATANAS!!!!!
Thursday, January 1, 2009
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